Today was a long day. Woke up at 3 in the morning and was never able to fall back to sleep. I had so many thoughts, how to make it work. What to do, what plans, what’s right and what isn’t. I had to bother 5 people even before 8am just because I has so much thoughts going through my head.
It hurts so bad. My mom was begging me to have my skin checked because my rashes are actively popping out. But I just asked her to wait until the end of the month when I get my regularization so that we don’t have to worry about any expenses.
I had to stop myself from crying but everything reminds me of us and how I am so much willing to make it work. I even wrote a reconciliation letter. I’d court you again if I have to and today, I’m so determined on doing it. Mom asked me to sleep beside her tonight. Hopefully, with her by my side, dreams of you would go away.